Fuyukawa, Ashley

ASHLEY FUYUKAWA

[attr="class","perhead"] THE PRIESTESS

[attr="class","egoistic"]PERSONALITY

[attr="class","perbox"] At first blush, Ashley demonstrates herself as a textbook example of a stuck-up diva, projecting nothing short of arrogant egocentricity and a callous disregard for the feelings of other people. Her status as an upcoming musical phenomenon belies her flagrantly toxic behavior, for Ashley is known to cause drama and participate in controversy as a self-promotional tool for her experimental grunge band "Leviathan", something she has admitted to numerous press outlets. She also has an active presence online through various social media channels, where Ashley's malignant character runs even more rampant by coldly dismissing the praise of her admirers and biggest fans in favor of inciting cruel flame wars and stirring up trouble between trolls and critics alike.[break][break]

Ashley's intolerable, poisonous attitude against friend and foe alike stems from a deep-seated paranoia surrounding her own self-image as a young woman bearing the dual gifts of beauty and brains, an existence she feels unable to cope with on account of how effortlessly her talent for musical expression seems to project itself. Her inability to understand these feelings directly translates into a broad, perpetual ambivalence towards her own mental and emotional health; while Ashley suffers and breaks down inside, on the surface she merely brushes it off and pretends like nothing is wrong. She will even go so far as to point out anything she perceives as a fault or a flaw in someone else, just to evade being scrutinized herself.[break][break]

Although her skill for creating and developing music is genuine, Ashley takes drastic measures to conceal her doubts on fame and fortune because she actively questions whether or not any of it is truly deserved, all based on just how much she takes this lifestyle for granted. The more attention she and her band receives, the more overwhelming this anxiety becomes, eventually turning into aggressive impulses that are just as spontaneous in their occurrence as they are inherently harmful, both to herself and to anyone trying to reach out. She has an especially distasteful view of professional therapists and counselors, yet belligerently refuses to accept their help, thus worsening the situation even further.[break][break]

The reality of it is far more pitiful than Ashley wishes to admit: she is deeply sensitive to the thoughts and feelings of other people, so much that she is emotionally fragile to the point of neurosis. This depresses her immensely, yet perpetuates the insecurity that causes her negative aspects to take a dominant seat in her day-to-day activities. She relies on her stage character "Leviathan" as a literal and a spiritual mask to disguise her bitter outlook on what can only be described as a truly self-induced environment of loneliness and isolation, a hateful ideology she has now started to include into her music as yet another avoidance strategy — those that hate "Leviathan", she rationalizes, only do so out of innate envy for her stunning looks and her killer hooks.[break][break]

[attr="class","egoistic"]BIOGRAPHY

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Before she pushed and shoved her way onto the stage of media popularity in the literal and figurative senses, Ashley Fuyukawa began her life as the illegitimate daughter and only child of nineteen-year-old dropout Rebecca Marshall and a 23-year-old Japanese immigrant named Akira Fuyukawa, who came to the United States with honest hopes of becoming a sushi chef for a country that had yet to develop a true appreciation for sushi as a culinary art form.[break][break]

The relationship between Ashley's "parents" dissolved rather quickly once Rebecca discovered Akira lacked the money he claimed to possess, as her real intentions were to sponge off the savings of a rich husband while she lived a life of luxurious comfort. After a failed gambit to illegally marry his way into citizenship, Akira resorted to impregnating her with a child, only to have this plan backfire tremendously as soon as Rebecca carried the fetus to term. Rather than put up with the moral consequences of her actions, she chose to leave her newborn infant in the hands of a stranger (and a foreigner to boot) without a second thought.[break][break]

Ashley never learned the identity of her mother and spent most of her childhood assuming to be the daughter of a single hard-working man who lived on Mackinac Island, a popular tourist destination and summer resort located between the peninsulas that made up the state of Michigan. Her memories of father dearest paint him as someone highly willing to sacrifice his own ambitions to provide his only beloved child an opportunity to pursue hers without fear — from boarding school to private tutors, no price was too great if it meant seeing his daughter smile.[break][break]

Her father's willingness to incur massive debt at his own expense caused Ashley to begin questioning her sense of value as a human person, serving as one of a myriad of catalysts for her current state of self-loathing and social hostility. Once modest and soft-spoken herself, Ashley's issues went unresolved until she came to the realization that her own timidity was the driving force behind her father's suffering. Combined with her naturally stunning looks and an inborn talent for musical expression, Ashley felt herself being saddled with the expectations of fulfilling a dream her father would never get to live.[break][break]

Eventually, their little island sanctuary became too much of a prison for the two, prompting a sudden eastward transition from Mackinac Island to the "Big Apple" itself, New York City. The idea was that Ashley's exposure to the urban life would help her to develop and make friends, while her father Akira could apply his expertise and knowledge of culinary preparation to one of its numerous Japanese restaurants.[break][break]

Sound as this plan may have been on paper, the actual process itself almost left the Fuyukawas financially crippled and unable to support themselves in even the most basic of ways. Reduced to virtual poverty and forced to attend a poorly funded public school as a consequence of her father's utter lack of practical economic wisdom, Ashley's depression transmuted into frustration, which then became anger, and eventually, resentment. Her only escape from all the madness was music.[break][break]

Come high school, Ashley's image and disposition started taking dramatic turns away from what she currently considers her "former self", becoming crass and vulgar as a way of combating her shyness while displaying nothing short of utter contempt for everyone who resisted or questioned this self-perceived concept of social defiance. Her clothes projected rebellion, her language spoke disgust, and her lyrics turned into a breeding grounds for these hateful thoughts and feelings; Ashley even started acting out when faced with even the smallest of irritations, desperately trying to stave off the crushing weight of her own helplessness against the world.[break][break]

Sometime prior to the start of her sophomore year, before Ashley's collapsing mental state reached its final tipping point, she took an impulsive leap of faith with her musical talents by pouring herself into the underground music scene, quickly discovering that she was now earning a great deal of attention for her work across the furthest reaches of the Internet. In the real world, Ashley was a worthless nobody; but online, she had real power, control, status, influence, notoriety. Feeling like she had found her true calling, Ashley constructed for herself a fictional alias named "Leviathan" and used her abrasive obscenity as a mask to hide her insecurities and faults.[break][break]

Ashley's devotion to music became nearly all-consuming while her grades continued to plummet, but the idea of ruining society's attempts to indoctrinate her into "the system" came to hold far greater perceptual value than her own feelings, even becoming more appealing than the true reasons that motivated her ultimate decision to make a life of her own. Truly feeling too cool for school, Ashley Fuyukawa dropped out and took the path of legal emancipation from her father — much to Akira's dismay — in her own effort to cut the strings of her past and start fresh.[break][break]

In three short years and many genres later, "Leviathan" has managed to become a media sensation the country over, where her musical talents have pooled their way into the dark and slimy realm of experimental grunge. Currently signed on with a notable record label that has aimed to elevate her music into the Top 100 Charts, Ashley took to her new career with flippant defiance — the only way she knows how to handle herself anymore.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

[attr="class","egoanswers"]"Don't strive to be anything less than a symbol."

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF PERFECT HAPPINESS?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] Having more money than I know what to do with, being on stage and having everybody love my music. Doing anything I want. You know, the life.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] Alone, ignored, I never really thought too deep about this. 

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST HATE IN YOURSELF?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] Everything. My natural hair, my face, my body, my voice, you name it. But it's what keeps me going.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST HATE IN OTHERS?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] Whiners, the unmotivated, people who think they're weak, the people that go nowhere. I can relate, but at the same time, I just can't.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER THE MOST OVERRATED VIRTUE?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] Love, ugh. Maybe I just never had any luck with it.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] ON WHAT OCCASION DO YOU LIE?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] When would I lie? Hah, honey, everybody lies.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] The formation of Leviathan, of course.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS YOUR MOST TREASURED POSSESSION?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] I don't really hold onto material items too lonf. They're nice, but yeah.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS THE LOWEST DEPTH OF MISERY?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] The lowest depth of misery can be found in the eyes of someone who's really, truly given up.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT DO YOU MOST VALUE IN YOUR FRIENDS?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] If you're there, you're there. If you put up with me, you do. If not, fuck you. That's it. I don't ask for that much from people like that.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST REGRET?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] I regret a lot of things, and regret something new everyday. I regret how much I let myself get to the way I am, but I can't help it anymore, it's way too late for that.

[attr="class","egosurvey"] HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?

[attr="class","egoanswers"] I want it to be memorable.

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